Sigh.. My Blog has covered with cobwebs. Time flies.. the last updated was exceeds more than a year. There was a time that many things happened.. very uncomfortable and most are unpleasant issues.. it's very difficult to overcome, until now have yet to cease.

What am i suppose to do to make things better.. My family and relationship.. this is really troublesome and headache me.. almost drive me crazy. Who doesn't want to be able to pursue and look for Happiness. Why is someone can't try to change from their mindset? ..to let go of the past hatred.. you may live your life happily.

I just want my life live happy, a peaceful and everyone healthy.. to fulfill with Happiness. And yeah, everyone wish to have a better life.

Unconsciously that i've stopped working since 3months ago.. and keep on looking for a job from my friends lately. Well, going back to my working life so soon, have to start to adapt to what the relevant work.. and having a briefing on tomorrow that regarding about in house stuff.. Wish me Good Luck.. since i'm a person who would feel lack of confidence in certain things sometime. Especially my own absorptive capacity..

But fortunately that there are something which made me feel very conforting is.. i had my Babesss.. What to describe about them, yeah.. AGGRESSIVE. Day to day they gave me confidence in each thing.. And i would like to say thankiews.. to all of you my Babes. <3

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HOME SESSION @ Yeen's Hse

It's holiday today but it's really bored me..
sigh.. whenever the holidays i always longed to go to other countries.. and i prefer to other state as well, or go to any other places which is far away from here.. to some exotic and unusual places that way you can add extensive knowledge, especially in Western countries.. that's nice and awesome.
But this time not so honored, therefore ended up at home. No, i almost forgot.. we did went to shopping and had brunch together.. me and my cousins acc their mommy and our grandma, haha what a mommy girls today~ then after that i drove them home. Well, i stayed for awhile since my mom didn't specify that i have to go home immediately, plus i am quite free today.
Gosh~ we took so many photos in the house, just like the silly girls and going crazy. Home surrounded! garden, living room, kitchen, dining room, fish pond, and room but not rest room haha. Pheww~ the weather is damn hot today! sigh.. nowadays is really hot weather. Hot and tiring..We miss childhood~ that time was very naive and lively.. plus we share our joys and sorrows at all times together.
And now we have all grown up.^^ Fortunately that our relationship is still maintained.
Thanks for everything, and we are always the best cousin sis.. will nvr change..
- forever and ever -

A Granny and Her Granddaughters.

dusty page updated ..

Unconsciously, over a year .. my blog has been covered with spider webs. It's been a long time i didn't update here, not even log in. Doesn't know where to start, as the year went through all and everything. This night was a bit lonely, my mouth feel so "quiet" lately, didn't really talk with others or find someone to share with. Never had a good time to rest well, when something happens.. don't even know who i can find.. Plus, i have to behave myself of the situation as i am now. In addition to personal affairs, and handling of the working stuff are quite stressful also. I finally collapse..

Found that the things around us gradually changed.. people around, loved one, and some friends.. there's a saying that i've always wanted to advise one of my friend, because in the past days i've always accommodate you, and now you said has lost a lot of good memories with me.. That is the fate between us, it was fate that we have met, but you do not cherish it all, really as good friends should not be treated like this.. try to recall your mind, think of those days when you treat me badly, your very bad attitude towards me, it might be possible to treat others the same, but have you ever think or care about their self-esteem and feelings? i really don't know, as you so arrogant and barbaric way to treat your friends, do you have a real friend? And to your personality, we cannot become good friends. Although it has been missed, but your memory is better than mine, if you have always felt that i was a good friend, you will keep those memories and you will remember me. I'm sorry that if what i've wrote that make you unhappy. Hope that one day, i can see your changes.. (END)

Sigh.. i thought the new year will be better, unfortunately i get most of all was not smooth. Sigh.. gets harder as we grow older.. Anyhow, no matter what will be.. i believe that Heaven must be a way. Encountered difficulties, think on the bright side, you will feel much better.
Recently i gave a part of my time to family and relatives, realized that i had neglected them in the past years. Fortunately, we are still able to integrate into each other's topics. * Same age cousin sis ..
My childhood nanny.. she and her family are loved me when i was a little child. So when every time my daddy came and i wouldn't want to go home. Even if i was set to go home, i am still learning how to take a cab and back to her house. Well, now i have grown up! And she always said: finally grown up. ~haha

Suddenly felt very touched.. when I recall the things of the past.. but things are passed..
Sometimes I would tell myself not to give up if things seems to go wrong, because it will be alright and things will fall in the right track, thought people used to think that things comes around, goes around and we will receive what we give out. But it seems everything is slowly changing..
It's a lot to process all at once.. probably need a minute to make it all fit in my head, & has been trying to change my own. Since I know that no one treated me well, nobody treats me as good like I treat them.. Nowaday feels like love encouragement is getting disappear.. I can only learn how to cherish my own..